 
Balletlover - Balletmania
written by Silverstreak on 28.08. at 18:54:46 - as answer to: On my tummy in my tights by Dancer guy at >But almost from the beginning of taking classes, I got into this habit. I come home after class with my dance clothes still on, and lock the door of my room. Then I lay face down on my bed and start pushing myself against it. I feel my dance belt riding up inside me. As I do this, I start saying things in a real feminine voice, like: "Oh yesss in my tightsss! I have my ssskin tight ballet tightsss on! My ballet tightsss are the tightst onesss in classsss!" If I'm alone in my house, I scream like a girl when I finally let loose down there.>Then I always feel ridiculous about the whole thing. I take off my tights and dance belt, and wash them in Woolite, and hang them in my bathroom. I swear to myself that I'll never do it again, but I always do.>I'm worried that doing this every day is going to change me in my every day life. Sometimes I think I can hear that voice coming out of me in normal situations. I'm only human. I figure acting like this every single day is going to eventually make me act feminine in public.>Does anyone else do things like this? Please guys, no jokes. You just described a textbook process of transvestism known as "purging"--where the normal masculine male alternates between transvestite (not a dirty word fellas) and feelings of guilt for having "degraded" himself by acting feminine.Word to the wise. Don't kid yourself. Embrace your alter ego by acting out fantasy roles for yourself. This is a form of escape and it is extremely healthy for normal men such as we,who are constantly bombarded by our cultures overwhelming feminine images. I notice a lot of the males in this forum who always start out by reassuring themselves publicly that they are straight and have girlfriends. Yeah, yeah--heard that...been there. It's not important what other people think about you, because believe it or not,there are A LOT of males living in denial and afraid to "show there feminine side". Many men have been doing what you've just discovered for years and have daughters, sons and wives who think they are the epitome of manhood. Beware a man who tries to hard to appear masculine (false machismo). Usually, they're the main ones who either have tendencies towards homosexuality and/or transvestism or have been molested by other males and are trying to overcompensate because some part of them may have actually enjoyed the homosexual encounter. A homosexual experience doesn't make you a gay person. That's why we have terms such as "bisexual" and "asexual". I suggest you find a willing and discrete male partner with whom you can "enact" your fantasy role of being a "submissive" or "feminine" sexual partner. Explore and experiment--because you only live once. Nobody has to know but you, your partner and your God. I used to think like everybody else and then I became enlightened. Ask yourself this question...Why has such institutions as homosexuality, transvestism (limited to the theatre and 17th century costumes), and female role playing (again limited to the theatre in the past and present) existed for centuries. Even the church, which has known for centuries that many priests and clergy were transvestites, homosexuals and transgendered (eunuchs). Again, it's up to you to decide. Answers to this message: |
