Hey Jodhpurs,I feel the same as you do, but you should be brave like me to show something, I am hard all the time especially with a buttplug inside my behind. Wearing the tightest panties under my light coloured leggings and with my balls bunched up with a band, I wear my dance school t-shirt with ballet logo at the back, and the t-shirt just long enough to hide some of my hardness, and I deliberately wear ballet like canvas flats or soft maryjanes to attract people staring at me, wondering whether I am a tomgirl or a sissyboi! Like you, I need to wear a condom to keep my precome from spilling out. and I love to try out ballerina flats at Payless or in dance stores trying on pink ballet shoes and asking about boys' dancebelts in the smallest size that I can fit in. Often a girl(s) walk in to buy ballet stuff and seeing me being fitted with various pointe shoes, where I tie my t-shirt into knots in front and exposing my jewels in front and my buttocks separated by my thong panties and with the leggings rolled up as tight as possible, I, like you jodhpurs, I climax and orgasm without even touching myself and continuing pulsing for minutes on end, it is the highest of experience, to me to be so feminine and yet, boi enough to satisfy myself without exposing my fetish.