You said so much of yourself, but you did not real the reason for your anxiety!There is this funny relationship which equates men in lycra (or whatever) with being gay. That's a freaky part of the present attitudes in the world. A guy in tights, no matter what he's doing, like performing with the Cirece du Solelei) did I spell that wrong? Sorry. I'm drunk, becsause my cousin died today), is thought of as gay because of the tights.
Sorting out our emotions concerning our sexuality and our interests in tights is really difficult.
Your response, stating you are "straight," but love wearing tightss, is really complex. In my humble opinion, you need two people. One who understands your your sensual nature and one who understands your needs to express yourself.
You need to find both of these people!
You have my hugs and kisses, and my desire to make you realise what you need to be happy!
balletboy!
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