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geschrieben von Dan                am 11.04. um 05:52:07I’m trying to fit in with these guys, but I’m losing ground. What happen to me was that we were all required to attend this function that was very nice and had all this great food catered. I thought party what the heck - eat enjoy. What I didn't notice at the time was that all the dancers were eating very lightly. It turns out that we had to get weighed the next day. Now I feel really embarrassed, like I can't control myself. I should have played it cool and watched the group cues. I asked one guy why he didn't tell me we were being weighed the next day. He said, he didn't know how to say it without embarrassing me in front of a bunch of people. The next day when we were being weighed, I was up two pounds. I know it’s mostly water retention after the big feast, and I was told to lose the weight, and I will. But I just keep making things worse. Just between one of the guys and me, I made fun of the whole process, thinking he would agree with me. I said it was degrading to be weighed like that. I said don’t you think your weight is a personal thing. He said when elephants fly. After lifting a girl up for an hour straight that has been putting on weight, you will beg them to weigh us. You can be dismissed from a dance school or dance job for gaining too much weight, and they do weigh you so you can’t argue with the number. Knowing you are being monitored helps you stay in check. If you want to be a dancer, face it, your body belongs to art. Then my boyfriend and I got into a fight about it. When I told him about it, he just made a big joke about it and said stay in shape please. I don’t want you to get fat either. I said is that all you care about is how I look in a pair of tights or a thong! I got so mad. I said don’t you even care about how they are treating me. He said you can’t just walk in there and think you are going to change everything. News flash – you are there to be changed into a ballet dancer – you are not there to change anything else but yourself. You are not the only one being weighed – what about boxers, wrestlers, when you go to the doctor. Then he goes why do you have such a big stick up your butt about this? I said I don’t know, but I think if they need guys, they should be friendlier. I like ballet, and I think I would be good at it, but this kind of stuff makes me want to quit. I’ve been avoiding that guy since it happened. Is what he says true? Should I apologize? How can I recover from this? I feel like I don’t belong to the group or to the art. I feel awkward because I don’t know what the proper etiquette for ballet is. I don’t know what to do about this whole situation. Antworten zu diesem Beitrag:
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