You are right. I have the tendancy to do basic things correctly as I am not overcorrected. Just think I am at some sort of plateau and I am having difficulty getting past the divide to start forther ascents to the pinnacle.
Being an Architect I have come across these situations before. Being a seasoned architect I have ways of getting beyond difficult situations, that is to leave the work on my desk and do something else for a while then my brain right relaxes and I can get back to working from my intuitive left brain (amazing how the brain works). This way of working doesnt lend itself well to the dance studio.
Unfortunately with dance I feel pressure to perform as most instructors like to see immediate dedication and perseverance. The pressure you have to do a string of Emboite en tournant de cote across the floor. Heck, If I could do 3 in a series I would be in good shape (new move for me); so how do you stop in the middle of the floor and hold a pose when your superior classmates with 2.5-3x more experience can make it clear across the floor?
More unfortunatly, my brain has been trained for the past 12 years to work as an "aloof architect" as the engineering professions call us due to the way great architect's create so my natural tendency is to do as many as I can and then walk off stage. Not sullen with my tail between my legs, but definitly feeling defeated. How do you add that pride and dignity?
With Intermediate Ballet I am really pushing myself. I have taken beginner ballet for the past 3 years 2x per week at about 3-4 hours per week on average. I've been looking for this next level.
I have been making attempts to add/create finishing poses to my lack of repetitive abilities across the floor. Then if I feel good enough and that I am not holding up the class I try to do the same amount if not more again. IT is an extremely tedious process to be on the correct (left) side of the brain and be relaxed enough in the body that you can "flow with the music".
I believe this is common for dancers to go through this "growing pain" and for some it may be less of a stumbling block than for others.
--------
Here is a good question. How do you remember center floor adagio movements from the time they are presented to the time they are performed (about 1 minute or less)? I have a difficult time with this, not so much in remembering the names of the steps (like glissade, jete, coupe, temp leve, glissade, assemble, pas de chat, baille, pas de bourre, royale) . I am thinking the sticcato nature of my movements is possibly due to my lack of experience putting movements together and should be expected.
I originally took this class with the "hey, what the heck" attitude that if I was good I was good and at the minimum it would be a learning experience. For some reason I have gotten all in my head and now have the attitude "come on Ron, get your act together". I should go back to the first lack of emotion state of emotion "what the heck".
-------
I really appreciate your insight. Not too often we get into dance philosophy on these boards.
This intermediate ballet course is definitly opening my eyes to the many angles of dance. Anticipating movement, moving from the core, feeling the music, remembering combinations, visualizing yourself, kinesthetic digestion, timing, dynamics, rhythmn, shape and space.
There is a lot there for me to become accustomed to I think.
Thanks again.
[/i]