>>We came out and rushed at us with cameras and tied the ribbons on the shoes CORRECTLY then mad us stand on the flat part of the shoe, which was the toe.    >>That is why I don't know If I should do ballet or not, I don't as much like the dancing, but after wearing those shoes, I'd really just like to wear them around the house when nobody's around because they are so comfortable, I liked the ones where you stand on your toes (they were soft).

Pointe shoes, especially the first time, are not "so comfortable" and "soft."  Most guys also couldn't stand on the "flat part;" that kind of balance takes practice.

Then you wrote: "If anyone could send me shoes I would appreciate it, I'm afraid I'd see someone in a ballet store that knew me and would start rumors."

After you were seen by your sister, mother and your sister's girlfriends, those girls who ambushed you, your friends (with truth or dare), and the girls and the guys at the mall in a store, why would you be afraid if someone saw you in a ballet store?  It seems like lots of people have already seen you in female dancewear, what trouble would a few more be?  If you want to dance ballet, dance ballet.  Your mother seems to think you want to take ballet -- have her take you to a school and sign up for lessons.

On the other hand, you could be playing out some fantasy.  If that's the case, I'd suggest that it belongs on the us.parsimony.net/forum27099 ballet fetish web-site, or at least on the dancewear dreams site, NOT ON THE MALE DANCER site.

If you read the old messages on this board you'll see that us male dancers are trying to keep this site free of fetish and fantasy.