Yesterday morning I went to the house so she could leave for work and I could spend time with the kids.  At least about 1 1/2 hours since I get there at 7:30 and take them to camp at 9:00.

Anyway she was folding laundry and I went on and asked her "have you come to any realizations." and her response was "what do you mean?".

So I said "have you thought about our situation or your feelings or anything about us?"And she said "I've been so busy I haven't had time for THAT".

For THAT?  I'm thinking?

It's only been on my mind for the past 2 weeks and she says she hasn't had time.

Why is she avioding the subject?Does she think our crisis will just go away?What am I Isreal and she's Lebanon? (We are both of the same faith)

Well tonight I had the kids and took them to the movies and she worked late-Doing her a favor but at least I got to see my kids and we had a great time.So the kids were all asleep when she got home aroung 9:30 and as I was walking out I looked at her and said have a good weekend and she said thanks.  So I stopped and looked at her and she looked up at me and said "what is there something else I should say?"I thought to myself "yes tell me you don't want me to leave and that your sorry for puting me through this and please don't leave- and let's make this work- I'll do what ever is needed."But she didn't and I just looked down and walked away and out into the night.

I thought to myself I could cry but I guess since I've cried so much this week I guess I don't have anymore tears left in me.

PTBL

(By the way I took a jazz class last night since I was alone with nothing to do so I drove by my old dancing school earlier this week and grabbed a schedule and last night was the last class for the summer. Couldn't find my jazz shoes-wife probably threw them out but of course I still have my ballet slippers so I used them but all of my tights have the crothes cut out so I just wore a pair of my running shorts and one of my weight lifting tanks.  But I did seem to be the only one wearing legg warmers.  What's up with that? Well I used to be the sh_t in my old dance classes and always took the front line and showed off but I guess after not taking a class in about 12-16 years I have lost some of my grace.  I'm sure if I'd stay with it I'd be able to keep up with the level 3's  in about 3 months but we'll see about that.) Trying to get my marriage and family in order has to take priority with me right now.

PTBL

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