I'm hardly in a position to give advice to anyone in your situation, but maybe there's your key: Your kids love you and they need you.

Good luck!

Jeff

>>>I understand but I had my heart broken and lost everything to that bitch.  The only thing I took was a pair of her tights.  hahaha>>>She gets the house, kids, dog, furniture... and I get to see my kids every other weekend and at school activities.  I agree being single will be good for me when I get over all this but for now I still miss my old family life.>>>PTBL>>.>>.>>.>>>>>>>>>>>>I have no magic words for you- it's gotta be hard. For what little it's worth, know that I'm out in cyberspace wishing you well. >>Good Luck- Vic>>Thanks Vic......I appreciate it very much.  We were married 10 years and up until last spring the tights fetish never seemed a problem but then she exploded with verbal lacerations that took my heart and chopped it up. I keep feeling I could never forgive her for the pain she has given me but at the same time I want my old life back and my family back and want to come home at night to my wife and kids and it just isn't happeneing.  >She wants out or wants me out of her life and has let me know that she does not love me anymore.>We told our 3 kids tonight about the divorce >the 3 year old wanted to watch Barney (on Demand) >the 9 year old was ok with it and basically showed no emotion>the 6 year old immediately flooded with tears and cried himself to sleep.>I didn't want to tell them yet but we've been seperated for 4 months and made the final decision to divorce 3 weeks ago and our therapist said we need to tell the kids since they have a sense of false hope and they can stop.>My heart pains for them and our future.>Thank god I don't have a gun because I would surely end my pain.>But i love my kids way too much and would miss them way too much also.>PTBL