 
Balletlover - Balletmania
written by Seamless at on 09.04. at 19:31:47 - as answer to: Re: sisters by EMPIRA >>~Seamless~>Good observation, Seamless. I used to sneak into my mom's room and take out a pair of pink tights she had. After some time of this (and here I thought I was SO careful to put them back "just right"), she confronted me. I was about five or six at the time. She was so insistant, not angry but kept saying, "Why were you wearing mommie's pink tights? You're a little BOY" over and over, making me feel SO BAD....HUMILIATED! I often think that if she didn't make such a big deal over it, that it may have been a passing thing. But that taboo, made it all the more needed.>Back to the main topic of this thread: while I had no sisters, I did have a younger cousin, who around this time, let me wear her tights and leotards. What a rush that was! Too bad she lived in another state. I also put on her older sister's tutus, but they were much too large for me, and I suck with her navy blue tights and leotards.>--EMPIRA--Hi Empira, thanks for sharing your experience. Yep, I would agree that the emphasis on WRONG made it "worse". Ironic how this is the opposite effect that they wanted. Well, for many years I "punished" myself for this fetish. It was only until recent years I was able to embrace and accept it (well, somewhat). I still have fear of being rejected for it, in which case my attitude shifts back to hatred of this fetish. All the while, it probably saved me much aggravation. Where I would have been combing the neighborhood having casual sex indiscriminately with women, I was having fun with tights instead. I'm convinced this fetish kept me "cleaner". Definitely. And being able to enjoy both sexual worlds kind of gives an advantage... Yet, if I ever find a "soulmate" and she ends up rejecting me because of tights... well, I guess you could say that lack of tolerance spells other trouble. But I would find it very difficult to keep from shredding every unitard and pair of tights I have... ~Seamless~ Answers to this message:
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